do i look like a lounge chair when i sit cross-legged? a 5 year old miss goh seems to think so.. holding her makes me feel old, like my role has gone from the one being protected to the one who is doing the protecting..and she is so small, makes me wonder why life is so frail.. her ceaseless innocent chatter, will it be gone when she grows up?

slept past 12noon, but i wonder how much quality sleep i got.. absolutely nothing to do today, just enjoying the feeling of slacking.. haha

mon is housekeeping day, tues with the girls-finally exams are over for weeinn! and shell goes to japan today.. hope she enjoys herself! =D

watched potter with gen ydae, at cineleisure! haha always good to see her, we are super crappy, but super fun.. =) thank god, i booked seats, we sat 8 rows from the back.. haha and watching at orchard really less children, or maybe they are all watching sesame street performance at taka. haha

potter's not nice! dumbledore's not nice! and why cant they just stick to the story? it's already saddening enough that they had to skip lots of parts, but why edit the story? roar! maybe should just learn to separate the book and the cinematic experience..

you'll love some girl, i'll love some boy, we'll move on, wouldnt we? what's the definition of normal? i dunno how to treat u normal, staying the way we are isnt really normal..

why is my life so messy? 'what if'...

from birth, girls are meant to be protected. but sometimes, i would like to believe i can protect myself, or maybe that the world outside is not so scary.. blabbering cos i keep scaring my dad.. sorry=x

contemplating a blog change. so no one ever knows.

another day of selectively reading off the net, in a fervent desperate attempt not to fail my HC803: Chinese Tradition and Society. the only damn paper standing between me and my freedom.

i cant wait for 25th to come! muahahaha

we're ok, back to where we were a few months before, all over again. i have a knack for hurting people, being selfish and heartless.. but his magnanimosity surprises me yet again..

hurt u time and again, shld be time i stopped, rite? pls take care of urself, for my sake perhaps..

i'm thinking that i should hug a "long-time-no-see" friend the next time i meet him/her. haha cause nothing express some emotions better than a hug.. haha like that time gen hugged me at bugis, i can feel she's happy to see me, and then the hug just brought out a feeling of closeness.

haha but this is not a hugging society, and i'm not very huggy.. haha let's see

woohoo~!!! bio paper is finally over, though i think i wont do well, but oh well, i'm just celebrating the end of bio!!! 25th would be chinese paper though why must it be in the afternoon? but a thing to look forward to is meeting gen for harry potter!!! yay~~!!

sth makes me wanna haiyo again.. haha

woke at 11! am i a pig or wad? gotta mug harder~~tmr's bio! i am afraid of a paper i've never taken before, a subject that does not encompass phys or chem..and the only way to score, is to memorise, the stupidest method i've ever known. -_-

watchg potter with gen next fri! haha and then holidays would finally start!=D

bio sianz.

restless,but it's bio! no choice, gotta mug.. why din i S/U HC803? haha i better have nice post-exams plans!!

i am a person who can forgive, cant forget. words that stir enormous emotions within me, i will always remember them.

i hate irresponsible gays. if you must sleep around and expose yourself to HIV, please do the community a favour by not donating blood! and especially not lying that you dont sleep around! disgusting people.

exams during november feels weird, like the whole world is holidaying except me. and with my parents so busy, i feel like an abandoned baby. hahaha=p

i wonder why my webmail and blogger are in chinese. oh well.

physics paper was easy, but i let ten marks go too easily. damn. i wanted an A. nevermind.

i gotta retake mass and energy balance in yr 2 sem 1. is it better? at least i get to try again..but perhaps going for the exam was a better choice?

3 papers left to go.. why do i end at 1630 on 25th?!

i din realise how i scared my friends with news that i fell sick during exam, until ql called and asked if i'm really ok for friday's paper.. haha sorry for the scare, but thanks for the concern!

am i really as strong as imagined? but i must say, i aint really happy in uni.. perhaps the slacking ways of old have taken its toll on me, to go on in my studies, i must change my habit!

i miss 2b ppl, miss the gers, evan, gen, ql, drama gers.. cya soon ok?=)

*striving towards my honours!*

din go for mass exam, n i heard it was difficult, to say the least. getting better, though i dun feel good at succumbing to a viral fever.. is it due to stress? i think so, the feeling of dread grips my heart, and i cant rest nor study properly.. haiz.. i never had such a bad bout of cowardice.. haha

mum din realise bro n i both sick till i called her at 1115pm.. i hardly ever c her during nov to jan.. sometimes i feel her dedication to her work is a form of neglect to the family.. n when she asked dad to stay on to cook dinner despite e two of us being sick, i was disappted. wanted to say she din care, but i found out she din noe.. wanted to sae she din love us, but i rmb many a times when she had a heart-to-heart talk to me, the times when she wld come in to tuck me in with a "gdnite, i love u"

i said e same words to my bro last nite, cos he was e one hu cared for me ydae.. todae i shall do e same for him..

have u ever told ur family u love them? or tried to show thru action ur love?

i'm tired, physically and mentally. sick, down with fever, flu,sore throat and a heavy head, contemplating whether i should get an mc for tomorrow, since today all i did was lie in bed, and take cold showers.. how am i supposed to think with a clear head, there's nothing inside!

for once, i fear.. fear i cant get past myself..

my family is always there when i need them, thanks!

maths paper down! i think it's doable, though how well i fare remains a mystery.. with maths you can never be sure, you could do badly due to carelessness.. but well, i'm just glad it's over!

5 to go!

totally agree with calvin's words on ql's blog.. ahaha n evan's pic on her blog is distracting, though sweet.. hahaha

exam stress made me sleep fitfully last night, amidst a nightmare of being late for exam. gosh, i'm a nervous wreck!

maths has always been a pain in the neck. when will i ever be done with it? heck frobenius!

i cant bear not seeing you for 21 days! no way!

and ppl, let's plan when to meet! =D

Never liked reading Time very much, but then again, this week's article, a report on global health, kind of struck a chord within me. I live here in Singapore, where top killers are heart diseases, cancer that sort of diseases, whereas people in Africa die of AIDS, tuberculosis,malaria,diseases that could have been prevented. Unfair ya? Where you live determines your life expectancy.

utopia- a world without infectious diseases.

if possible, everyone should do a part to help. there can only be so many bono n bill gates.

the darkest days of my life-mugging! haven started exams,but i'm stressed! n i m sianz todae! wanna yell, get out of the hse, hide under covers!

but maths, i shall conquer u! haha gg crazy...

does it hafta be 21 daes b4 i can c u?

studying with the window open gives fresher air, which i think aids in studying, or perhaps the fragrance of the flowers outside just calm me down..

time is runnng out, but just have to give my best. even if it's too late, i can only blame myself.. learn from this semester, next semester try harder!=)

ql's msg made me smile.. hee